Once Upon A Time...
I was headed to Hawaii with my camera and my surfboard in tote. I just knew that I was destined to be a photojournalist for Surfer Magazine. Only thing that was stopping me was the fact that I had no money and no idea how I was going to do it. I was 18 years old and dreaming of a life that involved my two passions: photography and surfing. I knew it was a tall order, but I would have done just about anything to have it. Unrealistic? Probably. I had never won any crazy big photography awards, never went to college for photography and I wondered if my dream of being a photographer would ever come to fruition. I was skeptical and I had little belief in my ability to be a professional photographer could lend me a sustainable lifestyle. How in the world would I survive?!
Turns out, God had other plans for me.
My life shifted and took a complete opposite turn. I actually put down the camera for a while! I thought to myself, “If I couldn’t live out my dream, then why even try?” Looking back, I know that was foolish. But at the time, I felt like the more I held on to it, the more it reminded me that I failed. I made a promise to myself that I could always do it “on the side” once I had an established career. So there, on my shelf, my camera sat and collected dust.
Years later, with an established career as a nurse, a familiar passion struck me again and I picked up my camera. This time, I knew I had nothing to loose. I was married to the most amazing husband, settled, and had a steady job. I finally felt like it was time to chase my dream. And so I did. Only this time, I left Hawaii out of the equation and exchanged it for the joys and thrills of wedding photography. It had been a long time since I had felt that kind of fulfillment in a job. And that has kept me hungry for more.
As I was praying this morning, I was reminded of God’s provisions. I thanked God that he has given me a second chance at this dream of mine, to be a photographer. I am so grateful for all of it. The people that I have met, the places that I’ve gone, the fact that my clients invite me into one of the best days of their lives and I get to take pictures of it all. Thinking about it in this way doesn’t make me feel like a failure anymore, it makes me feel fulfilled. And it reminds me that just because your dreams do not unfold when you think they should, that doesn’t mean that they never will. God’s timing is not always in line with our timing.
Here's to never letting go!
Photo taken by: Chris Sosa Photography